i speak...
i'm an open type of person. i speak out my emotions
usually pero i can be very private at times. i love to
dance and to sing
and i love the company of my friends and my family.
i'm an overly talkative, compassionate dreamer, a
romantic at heart.
i'm a writer too.
words i'd love to live by/tara-inspired
i will create my day
i will create my reality, moment to moment
i will change my mind
i will open myself to the infinite realm of possibility
i will leave room for auspicious coincidence
i will not decide what is next
i will not decide what is real
i will not expect
i will have confidence
i will boycott self-doubt
i will have confidence to go beyond hesitation
i will not be afraid to be afraid
i will remember who I am
oh, yeah. i will also have fun...
i love...
GOD
my family
net-surfing
reading young adult books
music
movies and tv
good byes are not forever
Sunday, December 10, 2006
these days, when i feel like i don't have something worthwhile to say, i don't waste time trying to put them into words. it's funny that nowadays it seems that don't get much inspiration to write.
what's funnier (the irony of it all) is that most of the time the thoughts that get me write are the sad ones; heartbreak, disappointment and now, good byes.
last saturday night i was feeling so scared of going to the meeting the next day. i felt so uneasy i didn't want to to go at all. but because i had to i did. but that was after stalling for about an hour. i was so scared and sad but hopeful that the news wasn't true. i remember praying for an affirmation of my wish everytime you spoke to us.
but of course it was true. you were both leaving. although i know that you always say nothing is final, i could already feel the air of separation lingering. and although my eyes always fail me, i told myself that i am not going to cry.
nevertheless i want to thank you both. i remember myself thinking, who would have thought that my parents' friends who gave me such a nice gift for my 18th birthday, and whom i'm not familiar with at that time, will be such a big part of my life later on.
thank you for being like a second set of parents to me. but i'm even more thankful, that i have such great friends in you both. i would have given up a long time ago if not for you. i wouldn't be the person i am now if you didn't come to touch my life. thank you for all the advice, the laughter, the memories. although you might have felt like we've lost touch these past few months, i want to tell you that i will always be around though i may sometimes be crushed by heavy workload.
i won't cry anymore. but i won't be afraid to say good bye. i still am your little angel and will always be.
"As happens sometimes a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone."
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