i speak...
i'm an open type of person. i speak out my emotions
usually pero i can be very private at times. i love to
dance and to sing
and i love the company of my friends and my family.
i'm an overly talkative, compassionate dreamer, a
romantic at heart.
i'm a writer too.
words i'd love to live by/tara-inspired
i will create my day
i will create my reality, moment to moment
i will change my mind
i will open myself to the infinite realm of possibility
i will leave room for auspicious coincidence
i will not decide what is next
i will not decide what is real
i will not expect
i will have confidence
i will boycott self-doubt
i will have confidence to go beyond hesitation
i will not be afraid to be afraid
i will remember who I am
oh, yeah. i will also have fun...
i love...
GOD
my family
net-surfing
reading young adult books
music
movies and tv
during my now-defunct bum days, i usually catch an ad of this stand-up comedy show on jack tv. there, one comedienne was shown saying, that the key to life is... lowered expectations. i understood everything she meant by that, and could somehow relate to that too. but the catch was, i never found it funny. i wondered if anyone in her audience then found it funny.
i have always thought of myself as someone who has high standards, great expectations, and someone who doesn't get easily satisfied. on one side, that's favorable for me because it implies that i always thrive to give the best and get the best. on the other side however, it could mean that i'm often discontented, needs high maintenance, and/or very demanding. and i'm not proud of that. but could someone be accused of such when all she wants is a decent, romantic, memorable celebration of her and her loved one's 1st anniversary?
our 1st anniversary would be in less than one hour. and yet, i don't have any idea of his plans for tomorrow, which is seemingly... NOTHING. and that drives me crazy. it's like wasting an occasion that only happens once in a person's life, and which fortunately and ironically lands on a sunday. i'm so disappointed my thoughts are way too scattered right now.
i'm thinking of treating tomorrow as one of those lousy, normal days instead of a special one, so that i wouldn't be expecting much and not end up disappointed, heartbroken and angry. but that proves really hard to do. and i've had my heart broken one too many times, and it's killing me. oh i wish god would please help me.
"As happens sometimes a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone."
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