i speak...
i'm an open type of person. i speak out my emotions
usually pero i can be very private at times. i love to
dance and to sing
and i love the company of my friends and my family.
i'm an overly talkative, compassionate dreamer, a
romantic at heart.
i'm a writer too.
words i'd love to live by/tara-inspired
i will create my day
i will create my reality, moment to moment
i will change my mind
i will open myself to the infinite realm of possibility
i will leave room for auspicious coincidence
i will not decide what is next
i will not decide what is real
i will not expect
i will have confidence
i will boycott self-doubt
i will have confidence to go beyond hesitation
i will not be afraid to be afraid
i will remember who I am
oh, yeah. i will also have fun...
i love...
GOD
my family
net-surfing
reading young adult books
music
movies and tv
dreaming of a life like this
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
the title above is what i have given my friendster blog (yes, i have one there, which i don't update), probably when i was still enjoying my bum status. well, i still enjoy it every once in a while but of course, i quote stacie orrico, 'there's gotta be more to life', right?
well alot of changes happened to me in the past week. not only to me but also to my brother earl, my boyfriend kel, my new found friends from the new east b sector core group and to my relationship with each of them. this was mainly because of the SHOUT we have undergone which proved to be one really fun and challenging experience, not to mention a life-changing, engaging and improving affair.
imagine being locked up in a small house for 3 and a half days, not getting to do, eat, watch, sleep, finish eating what and as i want, and getting to cook, clean and wash the dishes and get punished for any wrongdoing you have committed. and imagine having shout masters dictating your every move. and unfortunately those masters are supposed to be your friends. maybe not my type of permanent vacation but still, there's more to that shout than all that. i don't want to divulge on the details but surely, that shout had been a wakeup call to me and had turned my life around. i had found my God again and i feel so blessed.
today, i'm back to my nighttime/dawn escapades, job-hunting, making banners for my fic, PExing. in a few hours too, i'll be back in my school to settle once again the clearance application they said i didn't file a month ago which i did. and i'm already starting my chemistry board exam review which reunited me with my college friends; loida, rhay, joy, pau, tin, sabs, ces, bry, jase, lori even rio for that matter.
due to the shout too, i've learned more about fellowship, especially the one i owe my members in the yfc cluster my brother and i is heading. i can say i'm a better person now. except that i'm still a bit stubborn most of the time.
we have been preparing for our sector's sportsfest and for that we've been busy. i'm excited actually, for this is the first time, i think, that i've poured my heart and soul for a yfc event. i think i'm going to be doing lots of pouring from now on. especially since i have nothing to do til i get a job or go to med school or continue studying and take the boards. and because my God is calling me to. i was called, and i will go.
with this i will leave you with my favorite of the seven bible verses we got to memorize and absorb during our training. it is my favorite (i can say it was mykel's too) because it was the first one, the longest one and probably the one i most definitely can relate to. also, with this i think of the drivers and barkers of the aya, san jose jeepney terminal in the lipa city market, and tita shirley hernandez and her twelve kids, whom i've learned to love during my journey to finding out what love truly is.
1John 3:16-18 "This is how we know what love is. Christ gave his life for us, we too, then ought to give our lives for others. If we are rich, and see others in need, yet close our hearts against them, how can we claim that we love God? My children, our love should not be just words and talk. It must be true love that shows itself in action."
love is God. God is love. and i'll continue loving for him. :)
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